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DISCLAIMER:
1.What is true for me may be false for him, and what is true for him may be false for me. There are always two sides of the story and this is mine
2. I am not here to start an issue. This is my personal space to vent out things I want to say
Writing has always been therapeutic for me. I started blogging when I was in high school, and I've had an on-again-off-again relationship with it. For months now, I have wanted to write about certain things but I wasn't sure it was the right thing to do because I was afraid it would open up a whole era of issues.
I honestly don't know how to begin this entry without
leaving you in a roller coaster ride of emotions. I am finally giving myself the chance to vent out personal things I've been wanting to say.
Have you been in a long-term relationship that you felt it
will last forever?
Have you ever felt fulfilled and content with someone?
Have you pictured yourself wearing a wedding gown while
walking down the aisle, and your other half waiting on the other side?
Have you foreseen the two of you having a happy family,
living in a simple house?
I have. I felt and dreamt of all of these.
But the person I wanted to be with for the rest of my life
was not there to fulfill it. That would be the saddest part of the story.
I had my almost 6-year relationship end. I must say that
it was, I guess, a promising one. Personally, this one is for keeps. We may not
have the same personality but we make it to a point where we compromise with
everything. We do fight a lot about petty things, just like any other couple.
But honestly, I was more of the dominant one. I like to do things my way. Ako
na susunod lagi, Ako lagi. He doesn't even complain that much about it. He was
a great partner. He was always with me.
We traveled A LOT. I guess I brought out the adventure/jet
setter person in him. He is a very confined person: what you see is
what you get. He is funny and easy to get a long with. My friends never had a hard time hanging out
with him.
I know you are wondering how it ended when everything
looked so great. Was there a 3rd party involved? Did someone cheat? Was it more
of a personal problem? Was either one of you falling out of love? Who initiated
the breakup?
In every relationship there are highs and lows, a feeling
when in an instant, you just had enough. I can't disclose every detail that
would freshen up the wound, but to cut the long story short -- I fell out of
love, and had someone else 2 weeks prior our breakup.
Was there a third party?
Yes, I humbly admit. I am no saint, and I'm not pretending to be one. I'm not cleaning my hands off this, and I'm cleaning out my closet. But just so everyone knows, I wasn't the first one who did. At least I have the strength to admit it. I'm not playing "victim" all the time.
Was there a third party?
Yes, I humbly admit. I am no saint, and I'm not pretending to be one. I'm not cleaning my hands off this, and I'm cleaning out my closet. But just so everyone knows, I wasn't the first one who did. At least I have the strength to admit it. I'm not playing "victim" all the time.
How did it happen? Was it more of a personal problem?
I tried to stick around for him, in every one of his problems,
in all ways possible. I knew I was always beside him, gave my two shoulders for
him to lean on. But as I giving my all, I was also becoming weak and ended up losing myself. I was being dragged down. We had
financial issues, living-in issues, and a lot more. With all these, I knew it was
going to be our end. I just had enough. I know I gave my all. I was tired. I
was not me anymore. My personality changed; it worsened. I was not the jolly
person most of my closest friends knew.
I don't have regrets in this relationship. We had a long
journey together, and everything in it is now a bittersweet memory that I will
cherish. You can throw stones at me, but let me ask you first... have you no shame?
If you ask me now if that someone and I are still together?
Yes, we are still together. Happily together. I found my light.
:)
We've all fought our battles well. Really proud of you for fighting this war. Chin up, buttercuo. Love you always!
ReplyDeleteThank you for everything. I love you too!
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