Since school started back in November, I've noticed a shift in myself compared to last semester. I'm not sure if I'm feeling more laid back or just overwhelmed by the workload. A big part of it is that 70% of my subjects are now Math-related. I get the basics—addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division—but once word problems come into play, along with all those diagrams, I completely lose my way. So this semester, every time I pass a quiz or complete an activity, I find myself thanking the Lord above for the help! It’s that feeling of relief when you think you might fail, but somehow you manage to get through. With this fear of failing driving me, I've been putting in a lot of effort, especially in Math. I can confidently say that I'm a more dedicated student now than I was at Miriam College, and both my parents and friends have noticed the difference.
The moment I step onto the grounds of TIP, I make it a point to open my notes and go through them thoroughly, even if it's just for five minutes. Even if I don't understand most of it, I still check it out. If I really need to grasp the concepts, I turn to YouTube and Google for reference. I genuinely enjoy the feeling of being a student again, which might be why I invest so much effort, even if it sometimes feels overwhelming. Aside from the allowance I receive from my mother, class suspensions and holidays are some of the things I look forward to as a student. I won’t pretend otherwise—there are times I love not going to school because it gives me the opportunity to focus on my duties in the office.
Living this double life has been quite surprising for me. I never imagined I would be balancing work and study at the same time. In the past, when I heard stories about this, I thought it was easy—but I was mistaken. While my tasks in the office are straightforward, time management has become my biggest challenge. I have numerous homework assignments and reports to complete, along with deadlines to meet at work. No matter how much I try to organize my to-do list in my planner, 24 hours just don’t seem to be enough. There are mornings when I wake up, think about everything I need to accomplish, and instantly feel exhausted.
1. Where can I get an installer of Auto CAD?
2. Where can I buy a book in Solid Mensuration?
3. I have 3 exams tomorrow - 6 hours isn't enough.
4. I have to do lots of work at the office tomorrow
5. I have to think on how will I pay may fcking credit card
6. BLABLABLABLA
When I achieve something, it makes me feel like I deserve all the good things life has to offer. I know that all the stress I'm dealing with now will improve eventually, but I wish I could switch to vacation mode right now.
